By KATT
Added: Mon, 05 Jul 2010 14:53:22 UTC

I could use some really good advice right now.

This morning (July 5, 2010) I got a call from my mom that my Zayde (grandfather for those who don't know Yiddish) Mayer passed away. He and his wife Claire are holocaust survivors and they are the most wonderful people I've ever known. I've been so lucky to have him in my life. He's not really my grandfather, we're related only by the marriage of his son to my dad's sister. But because he has no blood grandchildren he and Claire adopted myself and my brother as their own and have always treated us as such.

I know that the rest of my family will be turning to their faith at this time, but I don't. This is really hard because it's the third family member on this side of the family I've lost in the last year and a half. I feel like every few months there's another death. My emotions have taken such a beating and feel so worn down and I don't know what to do with all this pain.

I've cried days on end over these deaths and talked about my memories and yet I feel so beaten down. What do you do to when faced with grief? I'm lost and frustrated that I can't find a way to deal with the pain.

TAGGED: ATHEISM, BEHAVIOR, RELIGION