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Thank you everyone.

I’ve been deluded all my life @lausten, it’s human after all.  Who doesn’t believe things that aren’t true?  Reason is… the slave of the passions after all.  But I was give strong delusion for 50 odd years (very odd…), although it was edited along the way and went in to free fall 5 ago.  I’ve documented the trajectory to some extent, but I’ll spare you.

Aye @mriana.  I brainwashed myself in to the chiliast cult of Armstrongism from age 15 as a shallow, wee-wee end of the pool bright, lower middle class English child of The Bomb.  The cult did the astounding thing of deconstructing itself 25 years later. Not far enough for our rich tastes obviously. 25 years on my deconstruction continues.  Only in the last three, looking out the window, walking, looking at the scales of nature, feeling the Earth beneath my feet did I realise that it is utterly self-sufficient as @write4u says.  In the decade before I still had a side bet on Eden in the midst of full on evolution.  Can you believe that?  That didn’t finally go until 2010 at the superb Musée d’Angoulême.  I still felt that God had my back around that time.  Emergent Christianity sustained me; Rob Bell, Henri Nouwen, Brian McLaren, Steve Chalke.

It still does.  Along with the blessed St. Dickie.

@write4u, talk of the Divil, the nightmare realities of Auschwitz and Hiroshima existentially unhinged me at age 10 and that was hijacked by the Armstrongism 5 years later.  They told me I was right and didn’t know the half of it.  Nobody else could tell me anything.  My parents, school, peers, The Sunday Times, Vietnam, Ulster, Israel, the entire oeuvre of science fiction, Bernard Malamud, Michener, Solzhenitsyn, Gordon Rattray-Taylor.  There was no headspace for sober introspection in that febrile second decade.  Or the 3rd… 4th… 6th.  Life you know?  It’s an immense privilege to discover the trick.  Few there be that find it.

So, does anyone else relate to the concept of superposition?  The mental layering, perichoresis of paradoxes?

Answers on a postcard.